When I ask Jesus to show me who I am in his eyes, it is always a child, and not just a static image of a child, but a toddler playing in a sandbox: safe, without a worry in the world, trusting…
Jesus has been showing me lately that all the adult things I have had to do in the last 40 years of my life, though important, though blessed, though gifted and talented, are not really what life is all about. It is this image of a child throwing sand into the air and giggling who is, at the core of my existence, the “little child” Jesus calls unto himself, the child God made because he loved her from before the foundation of the world (see Eph. 1).
“Accept being able to play and be loved”
Can you say to yourself, “God made something beautiful and strong and good and tender and kind when he made me.” What do you feel deep within yourself when you say these words about yourself? Can you notice your thoughts, any emotions, even physical sensations?
In my early steps of my own journey to accept being loved by God, I noticed that I would physically resist believing this: my stomach would tense up, my mind would freeze, and my emotions become rock.
One thing that will help you become the Child you are…
In a quiet place where you won’t be disturbed for about 30 minutes, say this sentence quietly to yourself:
“God made something beautiful and strong and good and tender and kind when he made me.”
Pause and get in touch with how you are reacting or responding to this tiny credo in God’s goodness that lies at the root of all joy. Just notice. Observe any thoughts, any emotions, even physical sensations….
After a while repeat this credo and spend some time noticing once more.
Finally say to your heart: “It’s okay. I see you responding in this way. I can understand that. I can sense what you are needing, even if I can’t give it to you right now. I want you to hear these words which are true: “The God who created you, loves you each and every day, in each and every moment of every day of your life. He can’t stop loving you, because he himself is love. Even if you can’t hear these words now, they are true. Someday you will be able to welcome them and entrust yourself to the One who made you with great trust. I promise.”
Still, God, you are our Father. We’re the clay and you’re our potter: All of us are what you made us. (Isaiah 64 MSG)
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